1. Be strong & independent.
2. Mark our territory, draw a clear lines & boundaries, set the rule.
3. Standup for myself & family
4. Be rich. Save our home (stop the leak roof, please, yaa rabb 🥺) & family.
You told me that no one else could ever save me, only You who can. (*through a nap, September 12th, 2020).
& I just accepted the fact that, indeed, no one would come to save me.
But, Lucky me (& finally), You've made it. I know You're the one who make me strong (through the insight from many "spiritual gurus" on the internet too, jazakallahu khairan 🙏🏻), who helped a helpless & a hopeless person like me to be assertive (or still agressive? sorry then). It's just like a miracle. You made me see, I am able to survive this (trials), all is well, it's gonna be alright. You just made me believe: To be with You alone, it's truly enough.
So I have a confidence now to say: I only hope from You, You know it too.
You are my only hope, my only "prince charming in the shining armour" that I'm waiting for.
The Most Powerful, the Most Rich, the Best Protector that I could ask for & the Most Merciful of the merciful.
Please help me fix myself, fix all of these things & get through it all.
Please stay with me, protect me, & keep me strong like this, okay?
*Ah jangan, tapi buat aku lebih kuat lagi & lagi & melampauinya 😁. aamiin.
*& yaa latief, duhai yang Maha Lembut, tolong didik aku nya dengan cara yang selembut mungkin, please..?? Kasihani aku, cobaanku kan udah banyak kaan? 🥺.